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Monday, 7 April 2014 // 9:18:00 am Um....so....something happened this morning...I'm not going to say it yet, otherwise it will bring attention to it, unless someone notices, I'm not saying anything, because yeah, self conscious child I am. In about 3 months I'll be able to laugh about it So... Tony Abbot is planning on taking away the Goods and Services Tax break from fruit and vegetables which means they'll increase the price of fruit and vegetables by 10-15%. I don't friggin understand the logic to that. AS IF BLUEBERRIES AREN'T EXPENSIVE ENOUGH ALREADY. I just realised I felt so badass today, in the way I dressed. Wasn't much, just my black kingdom hearts t-shirt tucked into my jeans and then khaki green jacket over the top and black vans. I even wore makeup today. But yeah, dress to make yourself feel good. It feels good. I got home in less than an hour today. Miracle Day 27. 
No shame. I'm wearing this to sleep and to uni tomorrow again and probably everyday after until I get on UNSW love letters complaining how dirty I am for wearing the same shirt everyday, I don't know how that works but OHOHOHOHO MY LOVE! IDC
Trip down memory lane
   
Time to stay at the library again all day tomorrow and Wednesday -_- and I thought I had escaped...
Labels: Reference to self, silence Saturday, 5 April 2014 // 7:47:00 pm Day 25. Labels: silence Friday, 4 April 2014 // 1:39:00 am 
FIRST EVER UNI SUBMISSION GAAAAAH I have 1900 words instead of 1700 I hope they don't kill me for that...They don't count titles and the reference list do they...Oh well we'll see.
You think it's ugly, but everytime I look at it I smile :)
Okay so I have established that on Friday's if on the train ride to Miranda I don't get to sit down and nap, I will be extremely exhausted at work. Yeah. I don't know if next semester I want to put classes on Fridays, 7am start and 11pm finish is just sooooooooooooooooooo tiring. But then again I might as well just put my classes on Friday to free up the beginning of my week. ARGH I didn't get to nap today so I'm so tired, I've already smashed my head on the cabinet twice. Woo! Something that made me really happy today was that after my tutorial my friends and I just decided to chill together before we had our next lecture together and the other person had to go out to city for lunch, so we just sat at clancy and talked. The 'learning about each other" process is just the best thing I find. Like when you start to share your beliefs, interests, personal and general things about yourself, when you find out what you have in common and the differences and you laugh at it and everything, it's just so nice. I guess it makes me happy because I've been around the same people for so long, not complaining, they are all lovely people, but you know, I become dry LOL! I run out of stories, and I end up saying the same thing over and over again, they already know so much about me they eventually stop talking to me and I had forgotten what it was like to talk about myself. I remember when I met up with Nickybaby at Gloria Jeans and he told me to tell him about myself, I was legit tongue tied. I did not know what to say, so I just thought of myself as someone uninteresting and boring, but in actual fact I probably just lost that skill of communication. I also found our topics were completely different and new to anything I've talked ever about with my normal group of friends, which was surprising I was like wow I actually have more to talk about than I realised. It's also so cool we have no mutual friends between us at all, not a single person. You know that theory where you're always connected to someone in one way, no matter how distant. We are completely separate, IT'S SO COOL! Also you know you always formualte these scenarios in your ahead, kind of like a plan of something you hope to say or do in the future, well I've always wanted to say this phrase to someone ever since something keeps happening and today I got to say it :D Funny thing was he said it to me first and I was noooooooooooo *insert phrase* ehehe, don't you love when things go according to plan. I also I met a certain someone today, ehehe...EHEHEHEHE....EHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHE. He's nice (Y) I haven't turned my computer on for...the past 3 days? Make that 4 because I'm going straight to bed when I get home haha. I haven't LoLed in the past 5 days...Oh well I haven't really missed it, I just want to play URF, but I can do that tomorrow 8) Also Stockmarket soup is sooo good. Except I traumatised my tastebuds because it was too hot. WARNING! I don't like that dark skinned girl who works there...she's so....unenthusiastic. 
lol wut.
OOOOH I ALMOST FORGOT SOMEONE ELSE I MET TODAY! Her name is Heaven. Yeah I know what you're thinking, and she actually matches her name some what, like she's really pretty and has a nice figure. She's from Malaysia too.
I guess...in a way, subconsciously, I've been out there meeting new people because I've been feeling so excluded. I know, I had a major part in it, but no-one has been really making effort when it comes to me so...well... one or two or three people. But then again I haven't been putting effort in other people so I have no right to ask or expect anything. I've been knocking way too long on a door that continues to remain unanswered, or even if it does open, it get slammed in my face again. Anyways I might as do something for myself than sit and mope. MY PACKAGE CAME WOOOOOOO. Day 24. Labels: silence Wednesday, 26 March 2014 // 11:29:00 am
I promise, this will be the last time, the last time where I worry everyone. I swear it. I really do. This will be the last time. But just this once.
Watching and listening to the lecture I didn't attend today while eating apple puree, best.
  我曾經為社會感到悲哀，但我從不覺得誰對不起我，我只覺得不能對不起自己，我努力創造好的績效，藉以證明出自己的價值 eeeeeh sos calling attempt #1. Fail. sos calling attempt #2. Fail. 
The only face I've seen all day. Oh 1up mushroom, what irony you are. Yet I let you sleep next to me every night.
I have no right. I have no right. I have no right. I have no right. I have no right. The amount of times I've told myself that. I have no right to dictate how someone behaves. I have no right to feel the way I do. We're all going to be doing the same thing, so why can't...? Can I just let loose just for that day? But I'll always have what it means to me in the back of my head. I don't want to see it. Will I be able to ignore it.
I'm thankful I got that cut on my thumb yesterday. It's currently serving as a reminder for "don't" I realised what it was that made hair so soft. Pantene Ice Shine. Last time I only used shampoo and it was so soft. This time I used the conditioner too and it feels like a baby's butt. Now I don't need to be jelly over other people's soft hair and be satisfied with running my fingers through my own hair. You are very welcome to try. 
There is something strangely calming yet unnerving about this at the same time. You just end up staring at it, waiting for it to go off.
Ahhh here it comes again.
Boom. Why do you have to be so good to me unconditionally. I ask for something and without question you get it to me asap. You accept everything I tell you. I put you through so much over and over again and I can't do anything for you either. I can repay you through my efforts, but that doesn't seem to be happening either is it haha. How do you be so kind. Why can't I be more like you. Compared to you, how did I turn out like this, worthless. Labels: silence // 12:31:00 am I'm am such a terrible granddaughter. How can I...How did I not... if I can't show enough care for my grandparents, my own family members, how can I even expect to be good to my friends. How do I even deserve others to be good to me. I don't. I haven't been a good friend lately either. I really don't deserve anything better. Okay okay today is going be...THE FIRST LECTURE I'M NOT GOING TO D: Don't bash me please. We changed our psychology topic to Cross Culture Psychology today and the lecturer, Leigh, as good looking as he is, ermagerd did I mention he looks like Eric Bana? Side track. Anyways I found in that lecture was the first lecture I didn't properly pay attention to. He was no offense but a little boring and because he wasn't very engaging I found myself checking my phone a lot more and drifting off. Yes he tried to put in a bit of humour here and there, but in general him AND the topic were boring and he was reading off the slides, so this time, I really might as well stay home and wait for the slide and recording to be uploaded rather than go to one lecture today and waste 3 hours travelling to listen to a not so great lecture. Ok that is my excuse and reasoning. EEK. I feel so badass...Jokes haha. Yeah I even asked my mum for permission for me to not go, well more like I was informing her and she was more than okay with so WOO! No guilt there. I bet she was thinking ahhh yaaaaas don't need to drive Crystal what a hassle~ haha anyways, in return for 'jigging' I must be productive today. I HAVE TO BE. I have an assessment due next friday that requires me to find 6 readings, and as we all know readings are so friggin long I really need to get started, if I at least do one a day I can make it in a somewhat orderly organised fashion, ALRIGHT LET'S GO. Oh my goodness, when I downloaded Microsoft Office on Mac for some reason I also got windows messenger AND IT WORKS! I really want to try it with someone again, I opened a conversation box with Larissa to see what it looked like, also windows messenger doesn't work on PC's anymore I think :( ahhh reminiscing the old msn days. I really really miss it. LOOK AT THE EMOTICONS TT___TT I miss them so much. I still have my msn chat logs back from 2009 and they're such precious precious records. 
Day 15.
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